Slow Living Artist
Updated: 5 days ago
What does it mean that I am... a Slow Living Artist?
...simply...
That rather than continue to live within the trauma-induced state of fear and anxiety I once suffered through, reliving painful memories, time and time again... feeling as though every time I'd just broken free, I'd just be anxiously waiting... expecting someone to swing the axe my way again...
...that now... instead of remaining in that space of turmoil... my soul knows and agrees with my God-given right to turn inward... honoring where I've come from, yet living within the present and embracing my own freedom.
I am new.
Resurrected... re-birthed... and truly deeply alive... within the potency of simple Being.
...and though once I feared that this retreat inward would make it appear to others that I was running... for the first time... I'm learning that embracing ourselves and our freedom is truly okay- more than okay- it is good. It is sewing. It is purpose and destiny... because in this embrace, you find your relationship with Spirit… with Creator... Source… Earth & the Universe... and therefore you begin to remember who you truly are and have always been… without all the noise, fear, chaos and distraction...
Spirit… the One who speaks… when the world is silent… continues to whisper...
And Now...
I can hear... and I know I am home... I am free.
No longer will I respond to the world through the state of my suffering... fearful of judgment, slandering, and disappointment. No longer will I live in a constant flux state of anger, anxiety, and fear, or preparing myself for disputes before trauma has even occurred.
Now... I will pause and remember... and then look and move forward... without looking back over my shoulder...
...because I can trust… in the Wind.
...the breath.
Spirit...
...the heaven my bones have always known… and now I see… I have been granted access to Greater. I have been given the keys to my freedom, hand-delivered to me by Spirit… that I may live as a free, whole and healed Being even here in this earth… with my Creator… my Friend. My shelter and shield... the Source of my Love and sacred connection to the Great Mother... and to All.
I have returned to my birthright.
Our birthright. Our Home.
And as Spirit... I can fully live... wandering... moving as I wish and as my soul needs, for Creator has shown me the truest and most pure desires of my heart.
And I gratefully, holistically choose... to set my eyes, my heart, my life... focused on the Mountain.
Every waking moment, I can... we can... sit with Them... our Creator & the Earth embrace us...
...as soon as I open my eyes to a new day... I feel the warmth of my heart... the warmth and love of my Life. And my soul gratefully sings and dances and laughs with our Creator, held by our Earthen Mother... and I allow the water that is Spirit... to wash me… again... and again...
Eternal.
And as I sit here now... basking in the majesty that is Spirit... I can feel the radiance of my own light... like butterfly wings fluttering on a gently breeze... burning luminously with Source Fire... as the Light of Creator and Creation shines upon and within my soul.
Spirit teaches me that there is no need to run but rather, gently allow myself to take flight...
and so… I sit in the physical, my Spirit rises... and I am awakened by a strong and courageous Stillness within me… and the Fire of freedom... and the Truth of who I truly am... who we all are... enlivens me.
In the Bible there is a scripture that reads:
Ye though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I no longer fear evil.
It reminds me that darkness has no place within this Sacred Light... And though it may still exist outside... the point is that we decide.
and through the teachings of the Dao and other eastern philosophies, I have learned that the true path (at least for me) to overcoming darkness- to releasing my shadows... is to simply be with them- like in that valley... not trying to change that the darkness exists or force some great overcoming... but simply allowing them to be within me on my journey... as I continue forward in the knowledge that they do not define me and that even if they did... they have their own beauty too- for they've taught me so much about my own power to choose to love myself... and therefore... love them too.
Eternal.
Here in Presence, I remember. Here... in this magical memory... a rugged, Mountainous terrain…
I am safe.
I drink from the Great Mother’s well… as water flows from the highest and most difficult to reach peaks... just as simply as it crashes and at some point, slowly softens by the seaside...
I am filled... with serenity.
I am peacefully present and aware... overflowing in this simple state of love and abundance... at all times.
I open my eyes and my heart within this awakened state of meditative living... to a world that is not harming me the way I once feared it was... but is truly a place of Wonder.
Of Beauty.
And Spirit is everywhere. Our Creator- a balanced representation of True Love in both divine masculine protection and the gentleness in which our Mother holds us… exists in every... living, breathing, beautiful thing.
Unhidden... Alive in plain sight.
And now, my eyes are lifted up. My soul is rested... humbled, settled... free... and any word my old demons try to whisper, I hear and discern with such crystalline clarity - I hear with no fear. No longer can they threaten me with their lies... no longer can my own darts or the darts of the world strike me down.
I am the earth... I am Spirit...
We are Free...
Not perfect… yet, perfectly human. Hearing and sensing... existing as Living Truth... because we know who & Who’s we have always been.
I remember…
I am not alone. Because Spirit whispers, "Forgive as water... release as fire.
Embody and live as love."
Not a command... a grounded declaration... space clearing and direction... a reminder of the Truths so lovingly revealed within the Way...
…and now I learn what is it to actively choose Love... to walk as Love. Even when it hurts… even when it’s hard… it is made softer... it is made simpler... because I remember what it is to finally feel that I Love myself…
...and within that embodiment is the natural flow of that same watery love...
I Remember... from my Spirit through to my Soul… and my energy and body follow… by taking a breath… and allowing myself that moment of safe surrender...
…I Remember.
And now, here in THIS present stillness… we choose again… to Be & Live… free.
To be and Live... Love.
We are gratefully woven so deeply together… flowing and FEELING what it is to know safety… in this eternal Loving embrace.
We Are Spirit… infinitely, eternally... Sourced.
...finally hearing the Spirit in the Wind... the Voice of Truth breathing within the earth- within Us as Earth…
...we are breathing... again.
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